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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

So Sick

(by Ne-Yo)

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

# PrmZkuOuS.Eric/Sam speaks
@5/23/2006 10:11:00 pm

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

the purpose of our fragile life

4 months of 2006 has past
entering the 5th month of the year
and already
i've attended 2 funerals
first was my great grandma
now its my mum's sis (big aunt)

i used to think dat life is long
long enuff for me to waste a few years
but not anymore
i no longer tink this way
i wanna be sure that i enjoy everyday dat i live
make sure i live my life wif no regrets
bcuz i duno when will it be my turn to be laying in that wooden box
some death comes wif a warning
warning in a form of danger or illness
some death hits u just like that
out of the blue
u may be a perfectly fine bugger
but next moment u may die of heart seizure

when God created us
He had a purpose for us
He's given us a task to accomplish
and when that is done
we gotta return to where we belong
in the loving arms of God

take my big aunt as an example
she's a widow
poor and always in debt
she brought up her son all by herself for all these 17yrs
never once she had a happy day
never once she cld say ok im gonna stop i nid a rest
may it be an indecent or decent job she's doing
she was doing it all bcuz of her son
at the end of the day
her son just dun see what his noble mum has done fer him
instead on the day dat his mum passed away
he said bad things abt his mum
and i c him as an ungrateful bastard
and God saw that too

God decided
the purpose of her life is fulfilled
she's slogged her life for her son
all the sacrifices she made
gone unrecognised by her son
her son doesnt deserve sucha noble woman such as his mum
its time for her to go
its time for her to go up there to enjoy
take a break
and i know
that she's already up there
bcuz i saw the smile on her face thru the window of the coffin

have you ever wondered why God created you?
i have

God created me as a joyous person
He wans me to spread the love, the happiness to the ppl ard me
He wans me to make/keep the ppl ard me happie
even thou sometimes its in the expense of my own happiness
im sure there's more to it
but as of wat i am today
i strongly believe this is the main purpose God created me

life isnt as long as it seems
trust me
21 yrs passed in a blink of an eye
i know it
only God knows when our time on earth is up
if u know u've been wasting ur life
den start afresh now
live everyday meaningfully
and if u wanna say i love you to ur loved ones
dun wait
dun be shy
say it now
cuz u wun noe
there may be no tomorrow
no later

Live your life with no regrets, dun waste it!

PS: pardon me for the "excessive" usage of God's name. but im no Christian. no plans of being one as of yet. =))

# PrmZkuOuS.Eric/Sam speaks
@5/07/2006 01:33:00 am

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