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Monday, January 29, 2007
Xu Wei Lun
(1978 - 2007)
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Whats wrong with me?
whats wrong wif me?
whats wif all these emotions?
not feeling upset
but my stomach's filled wif anger
where did all these anger come from?
who's all these anger targetting?
myself? perhaps..
im lost..
i dunno what m i suppose to do
no.. i do know what i wanna do
but im afraid i'll regret my decision
and i know it aint a wise or logical decision.
but im tired
just tired..
tired of doing too much
tired of ppl reaping my harvests
simply tired
i need unbiased advice. talk cock pals. brace yourselves for an epic story. hahaha.
im havin duty in camp nw. blogging in camp nw using MY administrator account. hehee
bored bored. gonna slp soon. tmr's d day. goin caltex house t see the FHM GND girls.
n maybe meeting monica n grace for lunch. oh wellsh. and grace: pls concentrate on
ur work. dun gossip bout me wif monica. hahaha. alrites gonna go watch my tv drama nw.
*signing off*
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Weekend Review
havent been blogging in a while. quite busy wif frens n stuff.
Fri 19th Jan
had my unit's annual CO's evening at nite in camp. there were skits performed by the trainees
and a performance by the SAF MDC (Music and Drama Company). the skits put up by the
trainees were packed wif laughs and twists. everyone were cracked up pretty hard by the
performances. Then came MDC performance later in the nite. and on came the pretty dancer
i spotted earlier in the nite. din catch her name. was some cheena name. why cant everyone
haf simple english names? hahaha
groovin to the music, strutting her moves
(too bad i din get a shot of her face =( )
she look lyk a simple sweet gurl when she was waiting for the show to start. and when
she starts dancing, she's filled wif energy and her dance moves surely makes her look
more den the lady she is. hahah. she took my mind with her when she started dancing.
and i almost forgot to take pictures. thank goodness i manage to snap a few shots. i've
got a clip of her dancing too. maybe i'll upload t youtube another day. she has been the
talking point of everyone since the performance. hahaha
Sat 20th Jan
met up wif sarly, meow,siti,rizal,clar the fag and terence for dinner. had dinner at secret
recipe at vivocity. as usual there were lotsa laughters cuz rizal did lotsa stupid things.
and rizal's dumbness spreads as terence gets influenced a while later too. hahah. after
dinner, sarly treat us to some donuts from Vinco, a new donut shop at Vivovity opened by
her fren. after that, sarly left t meet her bf and siti n rizal went off t romance. so it was
me meow clar and ter left. we went TCC at cine to chill. talked alot and we felt really old
after looking at all the "kids" ard dat area. we left at bout 2 plus when tcc was bout to close.
mich wasnt ard, which was kinda sad. lack of craziness in our outing. but nonetheless, it was
fun and wif rizal doin stupid things, its FUNNY too. hahaha like what i wld say. Army dont
change people. Rizal changes the army (with his natural dumbness). and meow.. do urself a
favour and.... PLEASE QUIT YOUR JOB. dun let singtel cheat ur money anymore. hahaha!
Sun 21st Jan
sunday. MONOPOLY DAY. kaixin, kaisi and justin came my place at 9pm to play. i had quite
a good start to the game. never looked lyk losing. justin was the first to get bankrupt. followed
by kaisi. den it was a showdown between me and kaixin. we had quite a long 1 v 1 battle.
she had her mayfair equivalent properties hotels. i had my yellow coloured properties wif
hotels. we were literally swapping money when i landed on hers den she landed on mine nt
long later. we play to the extend where there wasnt enuff $500 note in the bank. we played
till bout 1am. and i prevailled. i was the ultimate champion. i was the BANK. hahaha. i had
more $500 notes the bank could give out to me. hahahaha! ben and larry only came at 12
to watch the man utd arsenal match. god damn if only man utd won. wld've been a great nite
for me. bleahzzzzz. damn henry!
early in the game. those 2 hotel are kaixin's.
WAHAHA! ultimate champion
kaisi's butterfly hairclip on my hair.
singapura branch hasnt let me dwn. FRESH CRISPY ONION RINGS! i like! went to arcade.
played virtua tennis. FUN FUN. serve volley ftw! but damn jim courier too strong.
TODAY!
din do much. watched tennis. gonna do my assignment soon. i dun feel lyk blogging much.
lotsa questions in my head. or maybe i shld just fuck it. oh wellsh. i wanna do my assignment.
*signing off moodless*
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
FHM Girl Next Door 2007
well well well. its that time of the year again for the FHM Girl Next Door Top 100. i still
remember when it started. was 3 yrs ago, in 2004, when i was still working at ocbc as
an intern. i remember i was walking towards caltex house one fine day for my lunch when
i saw this bunch of skimply clad ladies. 3 of em approached my fren and i t ask us t vote for
them. cant remember whether did we actually called to vote. but they gave us a postcard
sized card of the top 100 gurls. i remember i pinned the postcard along the walls of my
'cubical' (is dat wat u call dat little personal space u get in the office?). and everytme we'll
turn n look at it to find motivation to work. i dunno wat motivation it gives us thou. hahah.
this GND top 100 thingy is in its third yr. they had it first in late 2004. den early 06 n now. 
finally got my hands on a copy. *grins*
so many gurls! 100 of em! well nt all r babes.
hmm picking MY top 4 GND
1. my all time fav - Adeline Teo. jeremy's fren.
(he says she's gt lotsa silhouette thou. PHOTOSHOP FTW!)
2. Cheralynn Yeo
(sweet looking gurl, not gonna win the competition but i lyk)
3. Gwendolyn Wan - benedict's fren?
(if u dunno her, u must've not read new paper. She's very popular nw.)
(benjamin tan was soo aroused by her maxim interview just to find out she's a lesbian.
poor guy felt so cheated. WAHAHAHA)
4. Madeline Tay - someone i stumbled upon on myspace.com not long ago.
(she's got a unique look. she can look sexy,sweet,pretty,cute in diff angles)
readers are looking out for (i suppose). i dun read FHM often. ben does. hahah. i only
support the GND issues. thats it. 6/7 bucks for sucha magazine is soooo not worth the
money. anyways if i were to pick the winner, i'll still choose adeline. all time favourite.
hahah. i still remember that time when i saw her at zouk. omg heart melt. eyes stuck on
her. hahaha. bastard jeremy noes her. im so jealous. hahaha! anyways the girls will be at
caltex house on 25th and 26th jan. BEN asked me t go wif him. He wans t see gwendolyn.
HAHAHA!
alrites. so much for FHM GND Top 100. time for a lil update of my life.
i feel more happy nw after telling her those stuff. im also glad dat she understood wat
i was tryin to tell her. anyways, i left office early todae. everyone left camp for a meeting.
therefore i left for a meeting too. a meeting wif my bed dat is. hahaha. afternoon nap FTW!
will be a long day tmr. got event in camp till 8 plus at nite. BORING! but in return i'll get
one day off. so OH WELL, perhaps i can do wif staying a little late. hehe. alrites. thats enuff
bloggin for a day. saturday's comin! gonna meet up wif poly pals. weeee
*signs off spinnin elva's new track*
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Back to where it all started
this post is for only one person. i hope u read it.
i admit that im hiding alot of my thoughts from you. thats bcuz i dun think
you need to know about it. u're happy wif ur bf and so be it. i dun wan u to
say things dat u dun mean. u noe u wun break up wif him even if ur frens dun
lyk him. i dun wan u to be unhappy bcuz of wat i think.
remember when i told u bout i dun lyk t talk to attached gurls? well i'll
rephrase dat sentence. i dun lyk t talk to attached gurls who talk bout their
bfs all day all nite. its lyk they haf NO LIFE. all they talk, see and care is
their bfs. dun get me wrong. im not jealous cuz u're attached and im not. its
just a personal thingy. theres more to life den just ur other half. if u're
gonna give ur frens up just bcuz of him, den u're making a grave mistake.
and hav u noticed dat i dun chat wif u on msn as often recently? dats bcuz
its only always bout ur bf we talk bout. wat happened t those rants bout ur
sister. or those juicy gossips bout ur frens? or more bout ur studies? do u
realise everythin u're doin nw. u're doing for him? everything u're talking.
its bout him. the last time u told me bout ur sis was when u said HE can get
rain tickets for ur sis n u. the last time u told me bout ur frens was when
they got to meet HIM. the last time u told me bout ur studies, its bout movin
into an apartment instead of a dorm bcuz of HIM. everything is bout HIM.
so the nxt time i msg u on msn, i noe u're gonna talk bout him. cuz other
than him perhaps we dun haf any topic anymore.
i'll b very honest wif u. when u told me on msn dat u noe im hiding sth from u,
i din wanna reply u. as i mentioned before, i din think anything i say wld
change anything. therefore i ignored u on msn. i just went to slp after that.
until u called me at 3.41am. i cancelled ur call cuz i din wanna talk to u.
and u sent me dat sms. i knew sth wasnt right. immediately, i tot of the promise
i made to u. therefore i picked up my fone n called u back. i just CANT NOT
care bout u. just when i tot dat we're drifting futher apart. sucha thing happen.
God just pull us back together again. its hard t believe. sucha thing can happen
anyday, anytime. but it had t happen yesterday when i choose to ignore u.
is God trying to tell me something. everytime when i wanna distance myself away
frm u, something happens and bring me back to u. shld i b upset, happy or shld
i be laughing at myself? i feel lyk im part of some prank God's playin.
what happened to u this morning definitely did nt lessen my prejudice for
ur bf. i'll may nvr say this if u ask me directly. but i tink ur bf is
extremely childish. n i cant tolerate what he has done. what is he trying to
achieve wif dat stunt. dun always think u're at fault. u are NOT at fault. and
it isnt his god given right to be selfish and unreasonable. if now it takes him
a fractured hand to understand dat u really wanna work, then whats nxt? is he
gonna break his other hand when both of u cant agree on sth? if i were to
have his mentality, perhaps i've died over 18 hundred times. anyways frm my perspective, i tink u've compromised enuff, in fact more den enuff, for this relationship. i cant think of any positive impact dat he's gonna make in ur
life. all i can see is u ruining ur future bcuz of him. and that thing bout
the video of him n all. i tink its just a BIG FAT LIE to cover for something
else. if only i can prove it.
whatever it is. tis is wat i wanna say so far. i may haf been harsh on certain
occasions in this post. but these r my thoughts uncut. if i said things dat
hurt u, or are untrue due t my lack of understanding of the situation, i hereby
apologise t u in advance. do not think i nva tot of ur feelings before saying
stuff. everything i do before, i always think of what u'll feel and think.
thats why sometimes i choose to leave out some details of what i tell u.
i tink its time to let u noe what i really think nw. i may haf crossed the line.
but at least this is wat i wan u to know. full detailed and everything dats
on my mind. i hope u think bout why m i saying all these.
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
KBOX MONDAY!
its me again, back wif happenings of my life. i tink i just had the craziest monday ever. i sacrificed my sleep for kbox! but it was all worth it. hahaha!
started the day lyk every other mondays. work in the day till 5.30pm. after work i drove t changi airport t meet kaixin n an injured kaisi who just came back frm cheena. she slipped n fell frm the stairs in her cheena home. *ouchs* *picturing dat scene in my mind*..... HAHA! how hilarious! okokay just kidding. kaisi if u see this. I WAS JUST KIDDING. this gurl still packs a punch even thou she's injured. hahah. anyways. we had dinner at POPEYEs at terminal one. its a fast food something similar to kfc but hell it was so much nicer den kfc. nicer whipped potato, even nicer fries, and definitely more yummylicious chicken. and so we had dinner and gossiped and analysed a situation which i encountered recently. MISCOMMUNICATION is the root to all evil. lesson learnt. words comin frm the mouth of a third party may be incorrect, false or untrue. oh wellsh, i tink i shld put an end t this miscommunication.
after gossiping, we were thinkin of wat t do nxt. and kaixin came up wif the idea of goin kbox. and as who i am, i never back down frm an offer to go kbox. hahaha. cuz an offer of such is rare. i agreed to the offer w/o hesitation knowing that i've gotta wake up at 7 in e morning.
we headed home first. changed. and accompanied kaisi t the doctor before leaving for kbox at cineleisure.
taken at flaming tree clinic.
we sang thruout the nite till bout 3.30am. i was really tired by 2.30am. and instead of singing, i did...
kaixin sings..
as kaisi watches on
by the time i sent kaixin and kaisi home and got home myself, it was already close to 4.30am.
i fell aslp at bout 5am and woke up at 6.50am. i was soooo tired. i was slapping myself on the face to keep myself awake while driving to work. thank goodness there wasnt much work in camp today and im on half day off. my mind was blank when i was in camp. i was too tired to think. i came home at 12 and zonked out after bathing. that was lyk 2hrs of slp in 30 hrs. wooo very very tiring but i enjoyed myself! KBOX FTW! hahaha well of course they were good k partners too. we shld do this more often. i mean kbox not the late nite thingy. hahaha. it wld be
okay if its on a weekend. hahaha. any plans this weekend? time t kpo justin's story HAHA!
*signs off still tired*
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
First Post of the Year
hoo hoo hoo merry.. hmm oops! HAPPY NEW YEAR! how time flies. 2007. 7 years into the "new" millenium, 3 years short of the first decade of the millenium and im now an adult (technically). and what does that mean? it means more responsibilities, more worries, more stress
and no more oogling at hot 16 year olds cuz u'll get people (lyk my ahbung) calling u PEDO! *thinks a lil* yet again. he called me a pedo.. nono! he ANNOUNCED to the world that im a pedo even thou the gurl i was eyeing is a 20 year old. oh wellsh. he isnt my ahbung without a reason. hahah!
a new year means new hopes, new wishes, new agendas for the year ahead.
1. studies - i really need t buck up on my studies. had a disastrous semester to cap 2006 but i started 2007 great. scored a HIGH distinction for my assignment for a module of the new semester. looking forward to continue the good work.
2.national service - gonna be 1 whole year in service this 19th jan. and i really enjoy my
vocation in the army. mainly its bcuz my unit rawkz. everyone's so frenly. if only i can attain this vocation and remain in this unit, i'll sign on. come to think of it. im grateful i failed my fypj in poly. cuz if i din fail i wldnt enlist late. if i din enlist late, i wldnt be in sucha good vocation, unit and get to know alot of amazing people. 1 more year to go, looking forward to finish it but i'll definitely leave with a heavy heart.
3. friends - new friendships found. some existing friendship bonds are strengthened. and some bonds within friends just drifted apart. this is life isnt it? getting used to this trend in my life. different periods of the year i mix wif different friends. i've never gone through a whole year mixing wif the same bunch of friends (with the exception to my soo chow buddies and ahbungz, cuz they're familia).
only ONE friend, i've stuck by for more than a yr. but yet again. she's MUCH more than a friend.
anyways in the new year, im looking to build new friendships(females preferbly) and strengthen bonds wif the ones who makes an impact in my life.
4. personal issues - this is kinda personal. so i wun elaborate it too clearly. it was pretty
eventful since her return. but im glad those series of events happened.it woke me up from alot of things. starting t understand what my frens hav been telling me all these while. my heart is feeling free and open again. i've finally manage t put IT bhind me. well not all but a big part of IT is at the back of my mind nw. thou im thankful for the memories she's given me. if it wasnt for her, i wun b who i am today. its time to move on. =)
i've got a long week ahead of me. deadline's for assignment and jobs in camp are looming. but screw that. aint gonna let that ruin my mood. shall look forward t meeting up wif my poly mates nxt sat. faggot!! meow!! crazy mich!! sarly!! silly rizal!! been a while since i've seen them except meow. bumped into meow couple of weeks back n she greeted me wif a beefy slap to my back and a giggle while calling me "bearrr!" when i was looking at the displays at action city. she's unique i tell u. hahaha
remember to catch the new 7pm drama in chn 8 on monday. it casts felicia chin and teresa tseng!!
oh and and. AUSTRALIAN OPEN for the tennis faithfuls. matchplay starts at 8am MONDAY too. dammit i cant watch.
hmm alrites. my mind's dry. i've gt nothing else t blog abt.
*signs off (still suffering frm gastric flu)*
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